In this beautiful world I am embarking on a new journey. A journey toward my masters. I am feeling ready and terrified all at the same time. I trust that I will succeed in this endeavor and find the graduate program that is right for me. I was talking with my friend Gwen the other day and realized that I am really good at faking confidence. This is a character trait that I strive to improve in myself. I have a feeling that I am not the only one who does this. I have often heard the term “fake it until you make it” and firmly believe that in many of life’s lessons we must fake it until we make it. The truth is that everyone has insecurities and I along with many other people in this world have to really work to practice demonstrating the kind of courage and tenacity we hope to truly posses some day. I remember reading about Nelson Mandela and how he to had many doubts but realized that in presenting them he could not help himself nor help others believe in him. It does not mean that the fear, doubt and skepticism does not always reside in all of us on some level. Belief in God tends to relieve some of that fear but often times it still creeps in to many of our thoughts without warning. I have been working on this and HOPE to let Him dissolve my fears. It has been about 16 years since I was in school and I feel that my experience working in the field of inpatient psychiatry has been invaluable to my understanding of mental health care. My greatest HOPE is to continue to try and make a difference in the lives of others. I feel that my purpose on this earth is service to others. I’m not certain about how that will look once I have completed my masters but I know in my heart that I will continue to follow my GPS (Gods positioning system) to help me figure it out. Graduate school pales in comparison to the challenges that many people face on this earth every day but it remains monumental in my life now. Every accomplishment begins with the decision to try and I am ready. Henry David Thoreau stated, “What you get by achieving your goals is not as important as what you become by achieving your goals.” Maybe even more important is who you become while achieving your goals. I look forward to finding out.

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